hey Zach i just wanted to sit here and reminiss with you for a bit. 2 years ago today i had a non-stress test, i had been having them 2x week for you, i didnt mind too much though, i got to check on you and i always got a small ultrasound after too, many of those times we got to take home pictures of you. the radiologist who we usually saw would even get us a glimps of you in 3D....you sure were a cutie(still are)...but on this appointment i was having many contractions, none apparently were of concern, but i did mention it to the dr i saw, i didnt care for the doctor, she didnt listen to me, she didnt understand the pain id been having in my back and hips for the last couple days, i asked her what would happen if you came early and we werent in houston yet....she told me "you still have 7 weeks, but im sure we could handle that situation" i left from her office to the immunizations office....my mission was to get a flu shot, i knew i needed it, i knew i needed it before you came here.
it would only be about 4 hours after that appointment when your daddy took me to labor and delivery to get checked out. this is where the rollercoaster really started. i was in labor....7 weeks 1 day early, at the local hospital...not in houston at texas childrens. i recieved medication to try to slow labor, but it was no use, you had a plan. the doctors scrambled in to get things ready we HAD to go...if we stayed you would have virtually no chance at all.....if we left we had risks...they informed me that being in the helicopter had its own risks...having had previous c-sections there was a risk of placental abruption...this could lead to your death as well as mine possibly. there was also NO room to deliver you if labor progressed in the helicopter. what choice did i have? we signed the release forms and i kissed your brothers and your daddy goodbye and headed to houston. daddy got things squared away here at home as best he could in such short notice and he headed up to houston. by morning Dr. Carpenter had made his decision after having an amnio and finding maternal blood in your fluid...placental abruption had begun, it was time to get you OUT and let you show us what you could do.
two years ago today was my last day being pregnant with you, was my last day of knowing you were okay,. you were safe....as long as you stayed inside you didnt need your lungs to breathe, you didnt need to be hooked to a vent. 2 years ago today lil guy you showed us all how things will be done in ZACH time.
so hard to believe you will be 2 TOMORROW! your amazing Zach! we love you so much, and cant imagine life without you. were so blessed that you are so strong and such a fighter. were so Blessed God has blessed us with you, my lil zachy-poo.
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