party time

Today was zach's 1st, 1st birthday party, 21 days early, just to ensure dad could be here for the party. it was very quiet and very small, but it was an enormous milestone for us. this represents the last 11months 1 week. the whirlwind of our lives, the never knowing what tomorrow would bring, the hoping and praying Zach would be with us one more day, and then one more. the silent prayers before surgery and pleading with God to be with him and bring him back to us. the hours we have logged into the NICU and PICU's the countless elevators taken to see our baby. watching as others go home and begin their journey unsure if we would get that chance. and today, Zachary sat in a highchair for the first time, and we sang happy birthday to him. he didnt know what the deal was, he didnt "get" the cake, or presents, or the celebration, but we did, and we know how lucky we were to not only have dad here to see this but to have Zachary here to celebrate. Zachary's birthday theme was "itsy bitsy spider" his invites had his footprint on them and it said "itsy bitsy is turning 1" its true Zach sure has come a long way from his itsy bitsy 4lb 7ounce 18 inches self. zach now weighs in at 22lbs and 9 ounces and 27 inches long.
the party was a lil bittersweet, as said above we are ABOVE greatful and amazed to have Zachary here, but Zach is around 3 months not 1 year, buying gifts for him was hard, he cant push or pull or grab or play with toys, he cant roll over or sit up, he doesnt care for to many clothes, but we did decide on some lovely books, some we plan to read and interact with him with them, and that i think will be a wonderful gift each and every time. our bonding, our sharing, our connection.
tomorrow starts another week, one where harold will be headed back to work, the week vacation was nice, but never long enough, and mikey back to school. zach will also be getting back to therapy, he has had 3 days off, its back to the grind! chance seems to be getting ill, i pray its only allergies as he has been sneezy, runny nose, coughing, so we put him back on zyrtec after being off for about a month, he is still on his singular and still on his asthma meds, tonight he said his throat and head hurt, and was slightly warm, so i gave him tylenol and airbourn, hopefully we can knock this out very soon. i have gone over the house, nearly every surface today cleaning and disenfecting, i pray this helps and no one else will get sick, especially zach. heres to a productive week!!