weekends over

well we had a pretty nice weekend, i was able to check my mood and stabilize it long enough to really enjoy ourselves. we finished the first color paint in our guest bathroom, WAHOO!! and did some cleaning. more importantly though we hung out and enjoyed. last night once the kids went to bed we went out on a "date night" we had zach's nurse here who didnt mind, we drove out to mcdonalds, lol to get drinks and then down to a new strip mall only to see it all closed:( so we went to walmart and i decided it was nearly midnight and i had a chance to be evil in walmart....bad i know. we took pans and dishes to the clothes sections, took bedding to the kitchen area, and tried to take some unmentionables (condoms) and put in others buggies....but no such luck. lol either way we had a blast there for about an hour, and kid free, it was great.
as the time ticks by i know our time grows closer and part of me panics, and part of me is mad and upset. so it was so nice to be able to let loose and enjoy. we made a cake last night and enjoyed the yumminess of it. this week i have yet more appointments, tuesday i have one at 745am and friday i have one at 845am.and an meeting a new nurse for zach.